I was recently having a discussion with an associate of mine who asked me a very difficult question: Who Are You? Who am I? The inquiry seemed so simple and yet I found myself struggling for an answer. In my head I rationed that I was my name, my age, where I went to school etc. but I was certain she was asking me a bigger questions. When met with my silence and puzzled face she rephrased the question: How would you describe yourself right now? Right now? That was easy. Confused. Complacent. Unmotivated. Lonely. At this point she stopped me. She remarked at how peculiar it was that I had not one positive thing to say about myself. I sat there and pondered what this truly meant. Could I only view myself negatively? Indeed, no pleasant things came to mind. So I was met with a challenge: Within in 1 week, think of at least 1 affirmative statement about myself. I had the option of writing it down or simply remembering it but to say that statement to myself everyday.
That was Friday, it is now Monday and I can't say that I've been able to think of anything...
I hear the wonderful things my friends and family say about me; about how proud they are of me and everything that I've accomplished. Then how come I feel just short of mediocre? That people are drawn to my warm and welcoming personality. Then how come I feel so alone? That life will take me so many amazing places. Then how come I feel so complacent? That is quite hard to stomach--Having other people see so much inside of me that I can not even see in myself. Which leads me to question Do I believe them? Are they simply being nice? How do I find this amazing women that others see somewhere deep inside the uncertain girl I see in the mirror? Am I even sure that I can be her? Do I have what it takes? I don't really have the answer but I'm excited to find out.
Whenever someone asks me a similar question or something like 'tell me about yourself', I'm confused just like you are. I go blank at that point and have absolutely nothing to say at all.
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Ivory Tirecia
A pretty amazing girl exploring the phenomenal women that is somewhere inside